Saturday, November 19, 2011


God opened her eyes and she saw a well of water. Genesis 21:19

Poor, thirsty, cast out Hagar; poor mother empty of resources, feet bleeding, lips cracked, heart-sore. I embrace her. I have been her.

This exact time of year in 1978, I sat upon my bed in a strange city with a pantry nearly as empty as my checking, away from family, with a homesick, hungry little boy sleeping in the next room.

I sat with an infection and a fever burning me up. I sat and listened to the most sorrowful of sounds...I heard my own soul cry. Open mouthed and soundless at first, like the ocean drawing back into one tremendous wall of hope-crashing destruction...then came such bowel-deep animal sounds of suffering, wave upon endless wave smothered in a soaked pillow never meant to hold such grief.

One word. Only one word cast up out of the bile of my soul, "Father."

One word and arms came to hold me, to hold such pain and share it. When I looked for Him, God was there holding a shaking, desperate woman with such tender strength.

I will never forget His coming or the comfort of His Presence. I also have long remembered the provision that followed. Like Hagar I had found "The God Who Sees Me." This seeing God became a journey companion who walked with me through the valley and up and out of it over time.

Whatever you are in need of there is a well of water at hand. God Himself will draw it up and bathe your lips.

Look for Him.


The Lord is my shepherd and nothing is wanting to me. In green pastures He hath settled me. Psalm 23


(Rhonda, if you are reading this, you mailed the money you received from your wedding shower to me and I receive it right after I called on my Father 33 yrs ago. Thank you. A friend loves at all times.)


  1. I didn't remember until you reminded me this past July when we visited but I am humbled that I could be an instrument to bless His servants and my precious friends. I Samuel 18:1

  2. Wow. Truly a moving post. My soul wrenched with yours as I read.